We have to let ourselves need things

A very subdued Monday update this week. I’m at the end of my rope with all the labor I have to do in order to sustain myself in the absence of regular human interaction. I’m having multiple small meltdowns and that was before I heard about Daunte Wright’s murder. Other people are talking about that with much more coherence than I can right now, so I’ll keep the focus on what I know. Which is that we have to let ourselves need things right now. Frivolous things, things we’ve been told not to need, things we’ve been shamed or gaslit about needing. Things we don’t think we have time to need. We have to let ourselves feel and name our needs, even if they’re not getting met. Even if no one else sees us, we need to see and acknowledge ourselves.